HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BROTHER MARTIN (:



it had been 2 months,
yet there are still people coming up to me and asked,
how is you and him?
Are you guys really together?
How long have you guys being together?
like i had been saying for the past 2 months,
without you, my life still moves on.
你的爱已不在 ...



expect the unexpected.
sometimes things just dont go the way you wanted it to be.




dread.
heaved a big sigh..



at least something to cheer me up..
NUM sent me my membership card, at last.
and what makes me even happy.?
cus the card is GREEN.
after hmm...about 1 and a half months??
(:
-sigh-



i'm utterly speechless.
my good friends.
somehow, those i predicted to be in the school team arent in there.
well, Gab, Yusof & Darren went in..
-sigh-


as a friend, i wanted to dedicate the following text to these 3 people, thou i know you guys wouldn be here... :
Josh, Chunming & Dalbert.
well, i know how it felt when you guys are supposed to be in the school team/handpicked by Uncle Adam, then..were so elated that THAT SATURDAY we were supposed to go Queentown and have the team shirt try out and so looking forward for the school team jacket and all. then the heartbreaking news came in and later being dropped due to the re-roll off.
Especially Josh, you still got next year but i know you wanted it this year real bad because it is Char's last year. and you wanted be with her in the team.. Well, CHEER UP RIGHT!!
As for Dalbert, well.. seems that you didnt got in, not you alone are depressed.. YOUR GAY PARTNER too. imagine your best buddy fail to be in the school team.. just like me without Fer for tournaments. OH MAN. dread.. give it a harder try next year. (:
For Chunming, nothing much to say actually. Seems he is alright about it as he claimed to be.. well, your msn sold you off. NEXT YEAR is still the keyword. Like you said that day, life wasnt fair at all..



slacked at Clementi Mac for dinner with Chunming,Biondi, Stanley & Yusof
38-ing.
as i need to repeat again, things just dont go the way you want it to be.
next year.
last chance.



training today was alright but still sucks. for some reasons.
bowling below my average that i used to hit.
OMT.
dread.



anyway, thankful that BELLS came to attend lecture with us.
dpfm 1a21 reunited.
had a big group for lunch at FC4.
PERFECT 9 that is what we used to call with ade & lurvies.
11 of us.
DEARIE.FER too.
she came to attend BMT tutorial with me. (:



went training.
my thumb hurts.
blister-ed.

ohdamn
hardly got mood to blog now.
maybe not because of what happened with the roll off results..but also with what SOMEONE HAD eventually pissed SPB girls team off.
YOU THINK YOU ALL GIRLS SO EASY GO SCHOOL TEAM NO NEED ROLL OFF VERY YA-YA LAH.
WTF IS UR PROBLEMS MAN, idiot.
damn fuck up, man!
why does this person even exist. and why does SPB have this kind of people?
the SPB i knew dont have such a high ego and sarcastic person.
OH YOU SUCKS.
you dont belongs to our catergory. and please F off.
damn it, why must my day being spoilt by this type of unsociable and egotistic person.
damn you, why must you even exist and caused so much misery to my potential school team male bowlers and saying this kind of remarks to my girls team. DAMN you, idiot.
and to this fucking a**h***, if not for that to happen, will you even be in? damn you, you shouldn be there. you spoilt my happy school team training and and steal a place from my good friends. you inherited pains to the guys. and fuck off please.
and dont blame me for making childish remarks now, cus i seriously need to "excavate" my anger out. (sorry i know i am using construction terms here.. OH DEAR)
i curse and swear that you wouldn make it to the first team ; be a backseat reserve.
damn you.
you and your high ego spoilt my day.



-sigh-
dread.
like what Karen & Fer said, he is like that one. SO HAO LIAN!
if not for his existence, i might be abit happier.
oh damn f.



i know my this entry is full of the d and f word.
OMT.
hopefully tomorrow gonna be a better day.
(:
=\
everything was so sucky now.
yucks.
despise.



FER, i cant bowl without you.
DOUBLES.
handicap without you.
OH DEAR, i sounded as if i m making a lesbianic confessions.
OMT.
at least we are on our way to break that 1000 and 1200 pinfalls record.
i love my dearie.FER.



and also one thing,
let me say a few words before i dozed off to Maryland.
i had wanted to say this all along, but i just cant find the time.
the message is to someone...i wouldn tell its for who...find out yourselves.
she loves you doesnt she?
it is so obvious.
it is all written everywhere in her blog.
you can treat as a good friend, but is she treating you like one? or someone more important.
yet you can pretend you didnt know her to me..
WTH.
i thought you had changed, but your actions marks me wrong.
or was it my expectations of you as a friend too high in demand..
mark my words correct again at some point.
and mark my words wrong at some.



treat that i just uttered some rubbish here.
OMT.
oh damn
i had a bad day.